Killing a few moments while the pain med kicks in.

I took our son into work and traded cars since the one I took in was low on fuel.  On the way home the dreaded "Check Engine Light" came on.  On Classic Rangies that isn't always a big deal.  For us it is usually an O2 sensor and at times it does mean that the O2 sensor is dead and at other times it is a bad connection or a transient fault and it doesn't come back after being cleared.  But when I got home it had turned cold and hail was falling sooo...I made a command decision and went in to get a bite to eat and take some pain med and wait for the hail to stop.

After Brandi had left for work I went back to bed, she leaves for work at 0515 most weekend days. But when I woke up I watched a bit of an old video I had of Brandi and H her first lover as a married woman.  I think I wrote up a bit about him but to digress I'm going to go back through the postings here and see if I can tie up any loose ends and also see where I was on our story of how we went from being a typical (define "typical"?) married couple to where we are now.  Not that the place we are in right now is exciting but parts of the trip might be interesting and informative to other cuckolds and hotwife hubbies and maybe even swingers.

So on this tape I have three meetings with Henry that all have me there and are years apart and were edited some just to make them shorter, to fit on a 180 minute tape.  I have tried to move them to DVD's but the burner I bought (a Sony VHS-DVD unit but I don't have the number in front of me) was new but a clearance item and it turned out to have no manual or remote.  I can't seem to close the DVD so while I can play it on the burner the DVDs will play no where else.  I think that it might be time to buy one of the Fry's re-manufactured units that they have on special fairly often for $100.  Most of the time our bottom feeding shopping works well but this time it didn't.

So I am watching this episode and thinking that to me that it is both hot and very obvious that she was enjoying being with H and enjoying the love making with him and also enjoying her husband watching. 

We were living in Madera at the time and we had been out for dinner and drinks with H.  The kids were else where so the house was ours and the cats.  Brandi was wearing a white lace dress, a lacy white thone, garter belt, stockings, heels and a top that was lace in front and stretch in back.  A wide white leather belt with a little gold trim on it completed the outfit.  The dress...yes you could see through it and see her thong, bare butt, the straps going down to the stockings.  She had a bit of a tan so the contrast was  rather sexy.  The top, her bare breasts were obvious and between her large dark nipples and aureoles, the slightly pale breasts then her tanned olive toned skin it was wonderful.  She looked great and the evening had got her more than a bit aroused.  She isn't really an exhibitionist but when she thinks she looks good and is in the right place she enjoys showing off a bit.  As we moved through the crowd at a couple of the bars we hit the looks from me and the glares from women were fun to see and her ass got  groped and fondled a bit.


I seem to recall that it was about a forty-five minute or so drive from Fresno back to our house in Madera.  I don't think that H and Brandi sat together but I might be wrong on that.  But when we were out they sat together and danced together and even at this stage in our relationship they were the obvious couple that evening.  Didn't push it too much but she didn't get to see H all that often since he lived in the Bay area and between the distance and his marriage we didn't get to see him all that often...but he and my wife talked frequently on the phone and when we got a computer they emailed and enjoyed staying in touch.  It was plain to see that they were friends, pretty close friends and I'd guess one that saw them this night and some other nights...would find reason to think they were lovers.  The touching, the kissing, the holding each other, the attention they paid to each other and the way they focused on each other and part of what I loved (and hated a bit, made me a bit jealous and envious) was they whispered to each other.  That look, that glow my wife's eyes get with some men was there in full force with H.

So we get home and I pour three glasses of wine (Brandi had enjoyed little to drink, unlike some women we know Brandi didn't like to drink a lot when she was seeing a lover, she wanted to enjoy him and the time they had together and didn't need to use alcohol to either make it happen or to give her a later excuse for it happening) and we sit and chat for a bit.  It isn't long before I bring out the video camera and set things up.

The video starts with a close up of Brandi and her lover kissing and just gets better.  All this was just to say that it is either a case of my wife being a fantastic actress or she really enjoyed being with H.  I think while she can do a very convincing fake orgasm the later is the case here...she was with a man she liked in and out of bed (or the middle of the living room) and she was  having a great time.  Her intensity and her enjoyment is very plain to see and you can also see that there is a closeness that isn't always there in cuckolding and even less often in swinging since for a lot of swingers even friendship is too much much less real closeness.

It is very enjoyable to me to watch H and my wife.  The lust, the friendship and dare I say...even the love between them is obvious and the sex is very intense.  The touching, the kissing, the slow undress, the caressing.  Seeing my wife ease down H's underwear and to see the delight and lust on my wife's face when her lover's very hard thick cock springs out dripping pre-come.  Then to watch as my wife takes his cock into her mouth and plays with it, rubs the string of pre-come around her face as she enjoys the moment with him.

After my wife is soundly fucked to several orgasms and after she demands that H come in her...and of course he does, wouldn't you?  Then I get to see my wife and her lover standing next to each other, naked, well almost naked my wife is still in her heels, stockings, garter belt as they cuddle, kiss, touch, and whisper to each other.  She caresses H's cock, wet, shiny, still pretty  darn impressive (I tend to shrink pretty fast after an orgasm), dripping from her moisture as well as his own, H did tend to come a lot and that was something my wife found rather sexy and enjoyable.  So it was obvious that they had a great time.

The point of all this?  What happened?  What happened to make her still voice the words that say she wants to play but at the same time for her to keep throwing rocks, logs, on the road to her meeting someone?  I'm going to try to find out and also I'm going to look back and see if I find any clues there.

Yes, I know we have other problems, cats, kids, my health but those problems are not really new and who doesn't have problems. 

Time has passed and nothing really new and exciting...

I've heard a few times from one of Brandi's old lovers (an ex-airline pilot) and to be honest we have talked about flying rather than sex.  I've really enjoyed the talk about flying and I recently stopped by the local general aviation airport and talked flying with some of the people (flight instructors and so on) at one of the FBO's.  It is funny in some ways that to me one's own life is "normal" and it is every one else that has the unusual life.  Brandi thinks I am an idiot for thinking that and that my life has been pretty interesting.  I can kind of see that trying to look at it as someone not looking out but looking into it.  Most days I bother to think about it I feel it has been a mixture of unusual stuff and a lot of boring things.  However we all are products of our life and the life I had does make me a bit rootless and no long term friends.  I understand that is common for military brats and I'd guess State Department brats and others that have moved frequently growing up.

I read about and of course I've know people that are friends with people they knew in high school or even longer than that.  I've tried to get in touch with some of my old class mates and even an old girlfriend but after a few emails things just...fade away.  No luck on the girl friend and it is a pity.  I think my brother and his wife messed up that years ago, K had tried to call me a few times after my father and my mother had died but they never gave me the message.  I can still recall the shock I had showing up at SLO High School for my Junior year.  I'd been in an all male military school the year before and I showed up a day late at "Tiger Town".   Had a bit too much fun in Hong Kong.  So I show up in Mrs Bowles class, English and there is a classroom with two other guys and a mess of girls including some real stunners.  I am a bit gob smacked, hope I use that right.  Mrs Bowles has me sitting in the front row at the end of the row, the three girls around me, two rather striking, had know each other since kindergarten!  A shock to me since I had moved every three or so years most my life.  The longest we had lived in one place up to that point was Laos, we were there from '65 to '71.  Several of the girls had known each other for that amount of time.

It was a bit of culture shock.  A year in a military school in Texas before this year and it was a few weeks before I could relax when a teacher walked in the room...we had to stand at attention at the military school whenever a teacher or other staff walked into the room.  Also it was of course the era of mini-skirts and it was...well it took a bit of adjusting.  Also I couldn't stop in a bar and have a drink, no easy dope, no "houses" that ranged in price from a 500 to 1500 kip...it was 500 kip to the dollar.  No maid, no house boy.  But of course the other State Department and military brats I know had similar lives.  I had a few dates with a girl in Laos that had spent about a total of six months in public schools in America.  She was fourteen or fifteen, a rather sexy slender girl and had spent about two years total in America.  An American yes, but she freely admitted that she didn't fit in at all in the American public schools she had experienced.

I've been working on the Rangie for about a week or a bit more just trying to do the front pads and rotors but it just isn't going well.  Not sure all the reasons why but part of it is my back.  So much pain now I really am limited in what I can do and handling one rotor or even putting the wheels back on take a lot out of me.  The continual pain also makes me a bit moody and a little quicker on the temper than I like.  Still not quite the way it should be so tomorrow I will get some more brake fluid and bleed the brakes again.  The anti-skid on it makes bleeding the brakes a real chore.  Oh well...I am trying.

Already a third of the way through March and I can't recall when we last made love or had sex.  I'd guess about the first half of Feb.?  Not sure what is happening or why.  Ed (the guy from Orange County) called last month and B said that she was going to call him.  I'd guess it has been a month since he called and of course no call to him from B.  I guess what bothers me a bit about it is that I have told her several times in the past two years that...if you don't want to do it I'll be happy to close down the ads and put it all behind us.  Each time I say that she tells me that she is interested and wants to play.  So where did things go bad?   Is it just that she is tired of the run of guys she isn't really interested in?  Or?

While she was helping me bleeding the brakes (it is a two person job) we talked a bit and again she says she is interested.  I'm actually a bit clueless about what is going on.  In the past she has seemed to enjoy emailing and talking on the phone with potential lovers but now she doesn't even make an effort to  stay in touch with guys that she enjoyed a friendship with as well as enjoying them in bed or in other places.  She did expect me to do the dirty work, running the ads, responding to the first messages, sifting through them to find ones that might work.  Then she would email and chat on the phone with them and decide who to meet.  She liked getting to know a guy well enough that she felt that she was meeting for sex.  Yes, the guy could talk her out of her fucking him and some did but she was planning to fuck them, if not on the first date certainly on the second.  She did like me along on the first meeting or couple of meetings but she did meet some men without me along and had some lovers that I never met and one that thought she was a cheating wife.

So I'll try to find out what it going on in my wife's mind.  Might be some of the other things in our life.  One of our cats has FIV.  A bit of a problem with the IRS (the people she worked for told the IRS that all of their workers got a $2000 grant for adopting a child).  Funny how our dependents didn't change so I do think that the IRS works at being stupid for lower income people and works at not finding problems with high income people...since they can afford to hire good lawyers and accountants and how much can you afford to fight for a few thousand dollars? And of course the slow work I am doing on the car and other things due to my growing pain, back and side. 

After working on the car I'm ready to scream!  Forty degrees F, on mud and gravel and dirt falling in my eyes from the underside of the beast...but I do enjoy the feelings one gets when the job is done and done right!  But I have to rate pain at about seven or eight after taking some moderate pain med.  If you are younger take care of yourself, getting old and beat up sucks! 

I've had the fun of seeing more Doctors that I really want to and with for some things being paid for by three insurance companies the two that are first to pay argue and argue and then the Doctors don't help by providing them with the information that they request.  The pain is rough but I've avoiding doing things for some of the problems since I just can't deal with the problems seeing Doctors cause and of course the cost is a part but I'm tired of spending hours per week dealing with the bills.  But for all the complaints about Medicare...it seems to work great in that the medical people know what they will and will not pay for and they make me dream of single payer.

I'll talk to B in the next few days and see if I can learn more.  We tried to snuggle a bit last  night fitting ourselves around the cats on the bed and I have to marvel just how sexy and beautiful I still find my wife and just how great her skin feels...as well as her great tits for her age or just about any age. 

Nothing New to Report...

I've been busy with things around the house and the car.  The Rangie is running rough, not sure what it might be but I'm going to replace the plugs, rotor, cap, fuel filter and see what that does.  I'll also do an oil and filter change and finish the brakes by doing the front brakes.  The brakes should not be too bad except for it being done outside in the winter time in a place that has winter.  Ah well.

Also I'll keep working on the doors, painting and fixing the ones in the shop and putting the locks and so on for the doors in the "new" room.  Got one on and only two to go, french doors so a little different but the hardware is all the same so the steep part of the learning curve is over.

No news on the hotwife/cuckolding side of our lives.  No news from E2 the guy from down in California has not been heard from for over a week.  I tend to think that no news is bad news here but I'm not sure.  So if Brandi says the words I'll start looking again.

Happy New Year!

In a few hours this year will be over.  I think that for us 2010 will be hard but not quite as hard as 2009.  2009 had a lot of problems for us, kids, money, other family issues and all that does cause problems with sex, in and out of bed.  It also causes issues in finding and keeping a lover or lovers.  Some of the kid issues are better and some of the family issues will not happen again, we just don't have that many more relatives that can die!  We are learning to deal with some of the money issues and we know that things are not going to get better for the country overnight, we see a rough few years or more ahead for us as well as our country and the world...lots of changes will happen but we all can learn and survive the coming changes.

Brandi is pretty happy at work.  I'm not happy not being at work but recent events have made it clear to me that issues with my back, neck, head and arm will prevent me from having any sort of a real job for the foreseeable future. I didn't expect to have as many broken down parts so early in my life...58 isn't old!  At times I look in the mirror when I start shaving and wonder, "Who the hell is that old geezer in the mirror?!"  We think our Darling Daughter is getting better and she isn't living at home which means the drama and problems are not quite so on our faces and causing more problems for Brandi.  Our son is making progress with life but he has a long...long...long way to go!

I do have things to do around the house and land that I can do.  Other things around here that I can do for just a little bit knowing that I will have a price to pay later.  That is life.  There are things that I enjoy that I can get back to doing since they are things that giving my limits I can still do them...I just cannot do them as long as I used to do them.

Brandi and E have chatted and I think they will chat again in the next few days.  This time of year is not the time to be seeking a lover or trying to do non-family things. Just hard to make the time or to have the time to sneak a call in away from family or a spouse looking for trouble eh?

E has some desires to cuckold me.  Strong desires in some ways and in some areas.  Not so strong that I don't find them interesting or arousing and I think that they are things in my discomfort/comfort zone, things that will make me feel like a cuck but things that I think will work without going over my limits.  However E is new to the hotwife/cuckold scene and what one thinks one can do versus what one can do tends to be...ah well a lot of men find it hard (or soft as the case may be) to make love to a wife in front of her husband, to treat a wife as a lover in front of her husband...might even add to the challenge when you know that Oregon is a easy "Carry" state...LOL!

After their chat Brandi understands a bit more what E would like and some of the things that E I have talked about and some of the things that  Brandi and I have chatted about.  Brandi is understanding more that it is more of a role playing game in some respects and a way for her to relax and let others take care of her and tell her what to do.  Relaxing and letting others take charge is something she enjoys and in men...she finds it to be a big turn on, however for some reason she finds it difficult to take me in a such a take charge way in sex and I find it hard to do since at times she has reacted to me doing it in a very negative manner.

So she seems to be excited about some of the things (most of the things) that she and E talked about.  After finding out that I am comfortable and in some ways turned on by E and her cuckolding me she is finding it all to be very, very interesting and arousing.  She has heard me say these things turn me on and she has seen it in the past but she has also seen me hurt by it...the hurt becomes arousal so fast.  So Brandi is looking forward to exploring E as a lover and maybe finding another lover or two that would be more local.  E's reaction to the pictures we sent made her realize that she is still attractive and her flaws...not that I see any, well, her flaws seem a lot larger to her than to E or other prospective lovers.  Seems like a lot of women do not see their beauty and some women don't see their flaws (take a look at some of the sites about the Walmart shoppers! Wow so many people that don't own mirrors!).  Another bowl of milk for this blogger, eh!

The picture...Brandi and her last lover...in our bed.  A nice cuckold picture in some ways, a happy wife with her lover in the married couple's bed.  I think doing a married woman is hot and doing her bareback in her bed, the bed she shares with her husband...so hot and him, the cuckold, watching even hotter unless of course she is a cheating wife.

Anyway, a Happy New Year to all and let us make 2010 a good year for us, our families and our countries!  And of course let's have a year full of cuckolding fun!

Well, I hope everyone had a good Christmas or....Holiday season!

So here it is almost done with 2009.  Not really a good year for us but at times I think we are happy, more or less happy or content to just make it through another year.  I'm not going to spend a lot of time crying here since this isn't really what this blog is for, but I did say somewhere that I would touch on and talk about other subjects besides sex and cuckolding so in 2010 we will do more posts, more posts on sex and more posts on cuckolding and more posts on none sexual subjects.  Oh, and the crying isn't just for me or my family and me it also is just kind of the "State of the World" crying and whining. 

Kind of a busy day in some ways considering we didn't get much done.  We went to Ikea, don't really like Ikea in some ways, consider them to be up there with Walmart except the stuff tends to be better quality and better style.  But they had some things that our son had to have and they were about a third of the usual price so we went.  Stopped at Target since he wanted to check and see if they had some Star Wars stuff on sale.  Funny thing, the Target stop and the Ikea stop both had to do with his collecting Star Wars stuff.  The stuff he wanted was not on sale or they didn't have it so that was quick.  I got a Hot Wheels Ferrari so I guess I scored.  I keep a shelf of the Matchbox/Hotwheels cars and other stuff in the garage.  My toy shelf.  Got the stuff he wanted at Ikea and I got some glass to use on work tops there at a good price, stuff that was being remaindered so while I don't like Ikea I gave in.

We dropped our son off at work and went off to do a little shopping except for the simple fact that Brandi had left the shopping list at home.  So the stop at Costco was not what it should have been and we really didn't get much of what we needed or thought we needed.  That part of the day turned into a kind of waste and I felt I was in one of those places and times that no matter what I did it did not make Brandi happy and I just could not figure out why.  BUT...

While we were out and about it started snowing in Willsonville, kind of heavy snow for a while. Then on the way home it stopped and usually we get snow before Portland or Willsonville due to our elevation.  But now we have snow.  For some reason Brandi had said that she wanted to go to a library outlet about ten miles away but then she just could not get going leaving me again wondering why!  BUT...

Brandi had heard from E a day or so ago and I interrupted the call, didn't mean to but I was calling her to ask her if she needed anything while I was picking our son up where he works.  So today her phone rings while we are driving and she is unable to get it, so my phone rings and it is E.  I chat with him for a bit and then knowing that it isn't really me he wants to talk to I hand the phone to Brandi after she pulls over and finds a place to talk.  She doesn't do a very good job since she stops under the freeway, lots and lots of noise from the freeway and the passing traffic, attention from the police...a message there? There were better places before we stopped and after we stopped.   Don't know?

E is at the beach so he also has background noise issues.  But they chat for a bit and discuss just what she wants and what he wants and touch on what I want or what I find okay or what turns me on and how that might effect what they do or don't do.  But we (they...the potential lovers) establish that they are interested in taking this further.  Both enjoy the idea of adding some cuckold elements into her being a hotwife and meeting a guy for sex.  Both seem to be turned on by the level of cuckolding that I think I can handle and enjoy.  So I'd guess it is now a matter for E to figure out when he can come up to our area and get together with my wife and see how it goes.  He seems very interested and turned on by the idea of adding some cuckold elements rather than just fucking my wife.  My wife is turned on by his enthusiasm for her and for them being lovers.  We shall see but I'd guess that things might happen soon.  If things work they way they usually do we should hear from another serious potential lover in a day or two, just seems it takes forever to find the right guy and when you do you find more than one...

Ah, the picture, I just love seeing my wife kissing a lover and I love seeing her kissing a lover in a public place.  Part of it is of course the chance that others might see my wife with her lover and their affection, making me a public cuckold and the other part is that kissing really turns my wife on, she loves kissing and kissing and public affection turns her on so I know she is turned on or getting turned on when she is kissing.  Her excitement is a major part of my excitement so seeing her kissing lets me know she is having a great time. Here Brandi is kissing lover goodbye as we leave the motel.  He and my wife had just enjoyed a few hours of fun and seeing my wife kissing her lover goodbye, knowing her pussy is full of his come...  And to add to my pleasure and hers, my naughty little wife is not bothering to dress or to clean up so she can  have me nibble on her well used pussy when we get home...  Looking forward to seeing my wife kissing her lover again, soon!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas or Holiday Season and I hope everyone has a great and interesting 2010!

That time of year...

Ah let's see, Christmas Time...the time of violence in and out of stores, greed by kids, adults, and of course all those that make bucks in our consumer society.  The older I get the more liberal I have become in a lot of ways ((I was a Goldwater/Reagan Republican until among other things I figured out that the "jokes" about women, gays, minorities were not jokes at all)...not in all things since I still feel that responsibility to yourself, others including that most important thing family but also a responsibility to the future as in short term gains leading to long term disasters and feeling that your wealth is more important than the country as a whole...

I find it a bit funny that we are being told that those that work, that produce, that provide real goods and services need to settle for less, to compete with Vietnam, China, India and all the Third World Countries in our rush to join the Third World and having done so that somehow most the other people in our country will be able to skate along and keep on being well off.  Travel to Third World Countries and you don't find much middle class, much well off people at all except for the few at the top.  A village in India, in Laos, in Somalia does not have doctors, lawyers, real estate people, stock brokers living the high life, driving new Mercedes, Jaguars, monster McMansions, frequent trips to their vacation spot of choice.  While we see that a rising tide did not raise all boats a sinking tide will at some point not be able to keep most boats afloat...  While I feel that one party has been quite skilled at getting Americans to vote to screw themselves it really is a matter of Republicans or Republican Light...no real choice at all.

While we have real problems we are led to believe that the real problems are such things as abortion, gun control and other issues that there really is a consensus on but minority segments of our population keep the issues alive, keep money rolling in and get to ignore the real issues that will effect our future.

I can recall reading an article years ago about some reform that some thought was needed in California.  A very wise commentator wrote that if it was ever "solved" it would not be for a long, long while.  Too many people made too much  money to stop the bucks rolling in by "solving" the problem...no problem, no issue no bucks rolling in to soo many people.  That is the present state of our system.  Held hostage by a few people that have bucks to stop problems from being solved and by people that don't want problems ended, for good or bad result since they make money by the problems being an "issue".

Okay, enough of that...

Brandi had me take some pictures this week to send out to a few old lovers and to one potential lover.  So far no word back from the potential lover so I have to assume that he is no longer interested.  I can understand why since we have had problems getting our act together but the pictures to me meant that  Brandi is wanting to play and wanted to see about playing with E.  But a few more days since this is a busy time of year.  The pictures were taken with a video camera that can also take stills, I think good quality pictures and with my mobile.  I think the mobile quality sucks!

Anyway, I'll post some of the pictures and see how you like them.

So how long do we wait for a response before we go back to looking?  I mean Brandi is actually very eager to drop her panties and spread her legs for the right new lover and to work at making me feel like a cuckold (yes work at it but she also says that the idea of cuckolding me, making me feel more like a cuckold that her just  being a hotwife has her really excited and the freedom that gives her is another turn on for her) with her lover or lovers help...

I've got a longer post I am thinking about but I'm not quite ready to finish writing it, a friend, an old lover of Brandi had me texting him mucho times yesterday about my relationship with Brandi, his relationship with Brandi, them being lovers and my relationship with him as him being one of my wife's lovers.  That can of leads back to a whole bunch of topics and ideas for further thought and I thought it would be interesting and possibly amusing to explore some of the things he had me thinking about yesterday.

I hope all of you, all twenty-seven of you have a good Christmas, a good Holiday Season, a Happy New Year and that this time of year is a very good time for you and your family...and that 2010 is a great and happy year for you and your family!

Yeah, yeah, I know it has been a while...been busy, sorry!

I've been out of town, been busy with other things, and still dealing with some health issues.  Have my plate full in the next few weeks with Doctors, insurance stuff, cars, the room addition, kids, Christmas and...and...and.  But I was doing some reading including Hotwife Allie and of course cuckold husband.  I must admit I love "cuckold husband" and I enjoy the photos and of course his stories and most of all his thoughts.

But I was thinking to myself...What does it mean to be a "cuckold"?  I feel that there are a few basic types of cuckolds:  The first is the easy one and the type that most people will think of as a "cuckold"...a man that has a wife that has sex with other men... a real cheating wife.  The wife does not have permission to have sex with other men and most of the time she tries to keep it a secret...very negative connotation!  Not a good thing but it does happen to lead a couple into swinging or into other things like her being a hotwife.  I would not like this and I don't think most "cuckolds" here would like it either.

The next basic concept is of course a wife that has sex with other men with or without her husband's permission.  This is more of a term for people that are not into any sort of different sexual lifestyle. With this simple definition all of us, poly, swingers, hotwife husbands and self identified cuckolds are cuckolds.  To most people this is a negative term, very negative!  If your wife has sex outside of her marriage you are a cuckold.  Simple.  I feel that this is more of a dictionary term and is too broad for use here.

The next definition gets a little stickier.  Hang around any swinger site and most hotwife sites and you will find that swingers and hotwife hubbies DO NOT feel that they are cuckolds.  In a lot of those sites "cuckold" is a fighting word.  Some people that have wives that date and go out and have sex with other men with and  without hubby along will really get upset at the idea that they are cuckolds.  Some sites have a cuckold side and the hotwife hubbies feel quite superior to the cuckolds...

So we have a wife that goes out and has sex with other men, not as a "couple" as in swinging, but has sex with other men, some date, some have hubby watching, some have hubby joining in and so there is a different style for every couple that play...but let me assure you that these men do not feel that they are "cuckolds"!

So now we get into the last group, the guys like me that feel that we are "cuckolds".  Our wives have sex with other men...blah, blah, blah...just like the group of "hotwife hubbies" above with the varieties that they have with a few more variations but...and this is the big BUT...we identify ourselves as "cuckolds"!  Now I admit that here you will find the sissy cuckolds, and we branch off into some mild or more than mild S and M and B and D but you can have those and not be a cuckold so while you for the most part will not find panty wearing sissys and cock cages and so on in the hotwife hubby area you do find that in in our cuckold area but...it doesn't mean you have to wear panties or what ever and a lot of us are talented guys and not at all sissies or un-manly away from our "cuckold" games.

I enjoy my wife fucking other men but for us it adds a lot for her to have long term lovers as well as just fucking other men.  I love watching but I also love waiting for her at home.  She enjoys dating...and we both love her enjoying semi-public sex with her lovers and she enjoys public affection with her lovers.  I've sat across from my wife and her lover knowing she is full of his come, his hand between her legs playing with her pussy as they touch and kiss...as we eat dinner in a "nice" place.  The feelings of lust and a bit of envy, I don't get to play with her pussy in a restaurant any more and to know his hand is there...or to have him make me taste her on his fingers or to have him have my wife hand me her thong that she has taken off for him...pushes my buttons!  Of course she enjoys bareback sex with her lovers and she loves me eating her her lover comes in her or on her, cleaning up his cream pies and she has had me lick her while her lover was in her...she teases me about my tongue on her lover's cock.

We both enjoy her being with a positive take charge type of man, an alpha male that enjoys my wife being his lover in front of me.  Teasing me a bit about it is great and reminding me in various ways that my wife is his while they are together adds to my excitement as well as my wife's pleasure.  We are not into pain but my wife feels her lover is in charge and then she gets to tell me what to do and I am there (if I am there) to help them have fun.

Having had a few married lovers in my past I know how I felt when I was coming in another man's wife, when you fill her with your sperm you are claiming his wife as yours...  And when I heard about unknowing husbands eating my lover after I had come in her...what a thrill.  I've got a pretty good idea what might be going through some of Brandi's lover's minds when they see Brandi shoving my head between her legs and hear her tell me to eat their sperm as she tells me how much she enjoyed her time with them.

For her lover to take charge, tell me to clean her, to ask me how his come tastes on my wife's breasts, to tease me about how his come tastes in my wife's pussy or to have me wait on them...adds to the fun, the funny mixture of pain and pleasure.  We have two possible lovers that plan on having me clean them if they make the cut...they have to turn Brandi on and she can be selective.  But she loves pleasing her lover and the right lover will have her telling me to clean her lover's cock.  She will enjoy it for the pleasure it gives her lover and I will submit to it since it will put me in my place...in my mind as well as give me pleasure in the way I get pleasure from pleasing my wife and her lover.

So I'd be interested in hearing how the readers here fit into cuckold or hotwife things and if they are active or have been active.

A few pictures of me, bedenied has run a few in the past of him so I thought I would join in...the before trimming since Brandi wants me to trim and shave again.  So here goes.  Ah yes, a pair of pink panties to remind me that her lover is the alpha male.