Well, I hope everyone had a good Christmas or....Holiday season!

So here it is almost done with 2009.  Not really a good year for us but at times I think we are happy, more or less happy or content to just make it through another year.  I'm not going to spend a lot of time crying here since this isn't really what this blog is for, but I did say somewhere that I would touch on and talk about other subjects besides sex and cuckolding so in 2010 we will do more posts, more posts on sex and more posts on cuckolding and more posts on none sexual subjects.  Oh, and the crying isn't just for me or my family and me it also is just kind of the "State of the World" crying and whining. 

Kind of a busy day in some ways considering we didn't get much done.  We went to Ikea, don't really like Ikea in some ways, consider them to be up there with Walmart except the stuff tends to be better quality and better style.  But they had some things that our son had to have and they were about a third of the usual price so we went.  Stopped at Target since he wanted to check and see if they had some Star Wars stuff on sale.  Funny thing, the Target stop and the Ikea stop both had to do with his collecting Star Wars stuff.  The stuff he wanted was not on sale or they didn't have it so that was quick.  I got a Hot Wheels Ferrari so I guess I scored.  I keep a shelf of the Matchbox/Hotwheels cars and other stuff in the garage.  My toy shelf.  Got the stuff he wanted at Ikea and I got some glass to use on work tops there at a good price, stuff that was being remaindered so while I don't like Ikea I gave in.

We dropped our son off at work and went off to do a little shopping except for the simple fact that Brandi had left the shopping list at home.  So the stop at Costco was not what it should have been and we really didn't get much of what we needed or thought we needed.  That part of the day turned into a kind of waste and I felt I was in one of those places and times that no matter what I did it did not make Brandi happy and I just could not figure out why.  BUT...

While we were out and about it started snowing in Willsonville, kind of heavy snow for a while. Then on the way home it stopped and usually we get snow before Portland or Willsonville due to our elevation.  But now we have snow.  For some reason Brandi had said that she wanted to go to a library outlet about ten miles away but then she just could not get going leaving me again wondering why!  BUT...

Brandi had heard from E a day or so ago and I interrupted the call, didn't mean to but I was calling her to ask her if she needed anything while I was picking our son up where he works.  So today her phone rings while we are driving and she is unable to get it, so my phone rings and it is E.  I chat with him for a bit and then knowing that it isn't really me he wants to talk to I hand the phone to Brandi after she pulls over and finds a place to talk.  She doesn't do a very good job since she stops under the freeway, lots and lots of noise from the freeway and the passing traffic, attention from the police...a message there? There were better places before we stopped and after we stopped.   Don't know?

E is at the beach so he also has background noise issues.  But they chat for a bit and discuss just what she wants and what he wants and touch on what I want or what I find okay or what turns me on and how that might effect what they do or don't do.  But we (they...the potential lovers) establish that they are interested in taking this further.  Both enjoy the idea of adding some cuckold elements into her being a hotwife and meeting a guy for sex.  Both seem to be turned on by the level of cuckolding that I think I can handle and enjoy.  So I'd guess it is now a matter for E to figure out when he can come up to our area and get together with my wife and see how it goes.  He seems very interested and turned on by the idea of adding some cuckold elements rather than just fucking my wife.  My wife is turned on by his enthusiasm for her and for them being lovers.  We shall see but I'd guess that things might happen soon.  If things work they way they usually do we should hear from another serious potential lover in a day or two, just seems it takes forever to find the right guy and when you do you find more than one...

Ah, the picture, I just love seeing my wife kissing a lover and I love seeing her kissing a lover in a public place.  Part of it is of course the chance that others might see my wife with her lover and their affection, making me a public cuckold and the other part is that kissing really turns my wife on, she loves kissing and kissing and public affection turns her on so I know she is turned on or getting turned on when she is kissing.  Her excitement is a major part of my excitement so seeing her kissing lets me know she is having a great time. Here Brandi is kissing lover goodbye as we leave the motel.  He and my wife had just enjoyed a few hours of fun and seeing my wife kissing her lover goodbye, knowing her pussy is full of his come...  And to add to my pleasure and hers, my naughty little wife is not bothering to dress or to clean up so she can  have me nibble on her well used pussy when we get home...  Looking forward to seeing my wife kissing her lover again, soon!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas or Holiday Season and I hope everyone has a great and interesting 2010!

Yeah, yeah, I know it has been a while...been busy, sorry!

I've been out of town, been busy with other things, and still dealing with some health issues.  Have my plate full in the next few weeks with Doctors, insurance stuff, cars, the room addition, kids, Christmas and...and...and.  But I was doing some reading including Hotwife Allie and of course cuckold husband.  I must admit I love "cuckold husband" and I enjoy the photos and of course his stories and most of all his thoughts.

But I was thinking to myself...What does it mean to be a "cuckold"?  I feel that there are a few basic types of cuckolds:  The first is the easy one and the type that most people will think of as a "cuckold"...a man that has a wife that has sex with other men... a real cheating wife.  The wife does not have permission to have sex with other men and most of the time she tries to keep it a secret...very negative connotation!  Not a good thing but it does happen to lead a couple into swinging or into other things like her being a hotwife.  I would not like this and I don't think most "cuckolds" here would like it either.

The next basic concept is of course a wife that has sex with other men with or without her husband's permission.  This is more of a term for people that are not into any sort of different sexual lifestyle. With this simple definition all of us, poly, swingers, hotwife husbands and self identified cuckolds are cuckolds.  To most people this is a negative term, very negative!  If your wife has sex outside of her marriage you are a cuckold.  Simple.  I feel that this is more of a dictionary term and is too broad for use here.

The next definition gets a little stickier.  Hang around any swinger site and most hotwife sites and you will find that swingers and hotwife hubbies DO NOT feel that they are cuckolds.  In a lot of those sites "cuckold" is a fighting word.  Some people that have wives that date and go out and have sex with other men with and  without hubby along will really get upset at the idea that they are cuckolds.  Some sites have a cuckold side and the hotwife hubbies feel quite superior to the cuckolds...

So we have a wife that goes out and has sex with other men, not as a "couple" as in swinging, but has sex with other men, some date, some have hubby watching, some have hubby joining in and so there is a different style for every couple that play...but let me assure you that these men do not feel that they are "cuckolds"!

So now we get into the last group, the guys like me that feel that we are "cuckolds".  Our wives have sex with other men...blah, blah, blah...just like the group of "hotwife hubbies" above with the varieties that they have with a few more variations but...and this is the big BUT...we identify ourselves as "cuckolds"!  Now I admit that here you will find the sissy cuckolds, and we branch off into some mild or more than mild S and M and B and D but you can have those and not be a cuckold so while you for the most part will not find panty wearing sissys and cock cages and so on in the hotwife hubby area you do find that in in our cuckold area but...it doesn't mean you have to wear panties or what ever and a lot of us are talented guys and not at all sissies or un-manly away from our "cuckold" games.

I enjoy my wife fucking other men but for us it adds a lot for her to have long term lovers as well as just fucking other men.  I love watching but I also love waiting for her at home.  She enjoys dating...and we both love her enjoying semi-public sex with her lovers and she enjoys public affection with her lovers.  I've sat across from my wife and her lover knowing she is full of his come, his hand between her legs playing with her pussy as they touch and kiss...as we eat dinner in a "nice" place.  The feelings of lust and a bit of envy, I don't get to play with her pussy in a restaurant any more and to know his hand is there...or to have him make me taste her on his fingers or to have him have my wife hand me her thong that she has taken off for him...pushes my buttons!  Of course she enjoys bareback sex with her lovers and she loves me eating her her lover comes in her or on her, cleaning up his cream pies and she has had me lick her while her lover was in her...she teases me about my tongue on her lover's cock.

We both enjoy her being with a positive take charge type of man, an alpha male that enjoys my wife being his lover in front of me.  Teasing me a bit about it is great and reminding me in various ways that my wife is his while they are together adds to my excitement as well as my wife's pleasure.  We are not into pain but my wife feels her lover is in charge and then she gets to tell me what to do and I am there (if I am there) to help them have fun.

Having had a few married lovers in my past I know how I felt when I was coming in another man's wife, when you fill her with your sperm you are claiming his wife as yours...  And when I heard about unknowing husbands eating my lover after I had come in her...what a thrill.  I've got a pretty good idea what might be going through some of Brandi's lover's minds when they see Brandi shoving my head between her legs and hear her tell me to eat their sperm as she tells me how much she enjoyed her time with them.

For her lover to take charge, tell me to clean her, to ask me how his come tastes on my wife's breasts, to tease me about how his come tastes in my wife's pussy or to have me wait on them...adds to the fun, the funny mixture of pain and pleasure.  We have two possible lovers that plan on having me clean them if they make the cut...they have to turn Brandi on and she can be selective.  But she loves pleasing her lover and the right lover will have her telling me to clean her lover's cock.  She will enjoy it for the pleasure it gives her lover and I will submit to it since it will put me in my place...in my mind as well as give me pleasure in the way I get pleasure from pleasing my wife and her lover.

So I'd be interested in hearing how the readers here fit into cuckold or hotwife things and if they are active or have been active.

A few pictures of me, bedenied has run a few in the past of him so I thought I would join in...the before trimming since Brandi wants me to trim and shave again.  So here goes.  Ah yes, a pair of pink panties to remind me that her lover is the alpha male.

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Time passes and not much going on. Nice weekend...

I'm trying to scan some photos of Brandi and one of her lovers and I also scanned some photos of me.  I realized that I don't think except for the header picture that there are any of me here.  Since I have exposed my wife with her permission I think it might be fair to expose me some.

If I manage to do it right there will be a shot of me on a tree limb taken after we had an enjoyable outdoor sex session.  I was partially shaved but not as much shaved off as Brandi likes me and the hair that was left isn't short enough.  Right after the after event pictures were shot some Park Rangers on horses drifted by, close but we made it.  There should be a shot of me painting the same building that there was one of Brandi painting.  A few indoor shots as well.

Part of what caught my eye was just how small I look in the pictures.  There are a couple of reasons for that.  I am a bit shy and not an exhibitionist.  Brandi enjoys seeing pictures of other men's erections but she only likes those after she sees more of their body, so don't send my wife a cock shot and expect her to be delighted.  Her ideal tends to be a body shot, a dressed shot, a face shot or a body shot that shows a face and then an erect cock shot.  She also has let me know in the past that she didn't like catching me masturbating and did not enjoy me sending her nude pictures.  But she enjoys them from her lovers.  Guess how that makes me feel and what kind of luck I have trying to get hard for a picture...

Looking at the pictures I look tiny!  Wow, in a funny way I am excited by looking so small there but in other ways in bothers me, I keep in mind what  Brandi said to me the first time we were naked..."WOW...What a hunk of meat!"  Fell in love with her at that point.  Brandi does enjoy well endowed men, a bit of a size queen....thick is what she really enjoys and she loves a man that comes a lot.  It does turn me on to know my wife is with a well hung lover or see her with a well hung lover and I love seeing her left messy and filled by her lover.

I think I need to find some pictures of me shaved since that is how she likes me.  She likes lovers trimmed and with their balls shaved but she tends to enjoy me totally shaved or with just a bit of hair above, trimmed very short and almost all shaved.  I'd like to try being waxed sometime to avoid the hassle of shaving, we shall see, she is interested in having that done to me but still thinking about it.

We think it would be cool for on of her lover's to insist  that that I be shaved and that I shave my wife for his pleasure.  Me having to be completely shaved at his orders would put me in my place.  One guy wanted me to wear panties, not sure if I am ready for that but it would make a statement that would be hard to argue with.  I think if Brandi let me know that she would enjoy it or enjoy it pleasing her lover I'd do it.  Pleasing my wife (and her lover)...very important to me!  He would be putting his claim on my wife by having me shave and trim her for his pleasure...just the way he likes her.  Brandi does enjoy a lover staking his claim on her, making her feel like she is his.  I enjoy the right type of man claiming my wife as his, I know my wife enjoys it and that adds to my enjoyment.

I hope to post in a day or two some shots of Brandi in bed with one of her favorite lovers and then the afterward...

Some questions for you:  I'm working on the story of our first time, should it be in present tense like it is happening or past tense?  It has got a bit long,eight pages so far and she isn't fucking yet.  Should I post it in sections?  Rewrite the whole mess?  Start over?  I'm trying to tell my thoughts and what I know of her thoughts as it was happening but that does make it long and I tend to be long winded.

Is there any easy way to change how the pictures are arranged?  Given the idea I was trying to explain it would be better if I could change their order.