Another Day...

Busy today picking up Darling Daughter's car, it is better but not great, seems it was the torque converter failing that caused the problems, $500 lighter in the wallet, tough on a budget but it does run better. I do trust the shop that did the work as much as any shop. Two days after this...the car runs better but still jerks and shakes some until warm.

Also made Chili for a fund raiser tomorrow and did some other things to help with the fund raiser so didn't get much done that I wanted to get done. Day after the fund raiser, went well.

I was reading another blog and he mentioned about his wife telling him she might see someone while he was out of town. His Blog: http://cuckold-husband-bdenied.blogspot.com/ Didn't quite happen while he was gone but something quite fun happened when he got home. Anyway I mentioned something about a time I was out of town and I thought I would go into greater detail here.

I was working as a pilot for a company hauling freight, international freight, fun and I got to see the world. One of the bad points was our work month was sixteen to twenty-two days gone...gone as in a row of days away from home...really gone!

I was up in Anchorage for a few days and I got an email from Brandi telling me that she had a date, a first meeting really with a new guy named John coming up in a few days and she wanted to know if I was okay with it. She did say that she would just meet him, she was not going to have sex with him on a first date.

Of course I was, a bit envious since I wasn't getting much sex and Brandi was seeing up to three men during this time and John was a new guy. So a little about John. He was an architech and Brandi at one time dreamed of being one herself. She is a bit obsessed about houses and their designs. But to be honest architechs turn her on big time. John was also a well spoken guy that treated her well.

Like I said I think the first time they met I was out of town, think I was doing Anchorage to Seoul. I think Brandi called me when I was back in Alaska the day after or maybe even that evening? Anyway Brandi agreed to meet him at a restaurant in San Luis, about 40 miles from our house. She met him for a drink and nibbles. They chatted some and got along well. John invited my wife to see his home. So off they went to his house. They drove in two cars or it was within walking distance of the restaurant. Less than two hours after they met they were walking into John's home. John gave her a tour of his home. Then they sat and chatted in the living room, on a sofa, next to each other but no contact...no sexual comments.

My wife is wondering what is going on, she tells me that by going to his home she was telling him and herself that she was wanting to take things a bit further, she wanted to fuck him. She is giving up, getting mentally ready to leave and go home.

All of a sudden John pulls her toward him and kisses her. Starts groping her body as he keeps kissing her. Then John pulls my wife off the sofa and onto the carpeted floor.

So try to picture this, my wife is on her back on the floor and John is kind of beside her bending over and kissing her as he is using one hand to fondle and caress her breasts through her top and at times running his hand up her legs and staring to get his hand up under her skirt. As Brandi is telling me this her shock at the suddenness of John's assault is clear to me, As she is telling me this after the fact I am shocked and worried, was my wife being forced to do something she didn't want to do, was my wife being "date raped"?

Brandi goes on... John kept kissing her as he ran his hand up under my wife's skirt. Then John is pushing her top up, groping her breasts through her bra and then pushes her bra up. Now John is roughly playing with my wife's breasts, sqeezing them, teasing and pinching her nipples as he keeps kissing her.

I start to ask questions, nervous and concerned about my wife and how she felt about what happened. Brandi keeps going, ignoring my questions. John moves to between my wife's legs, pushing up her skirt and feels her legs and her thong as he bends back down and keeps kissing her and also taking time to kiss and nibble on her breasts. He reaches up her skirt and starts to pull my wife's thong down...pushes her skirt up around her waist and yanks her thong down and works it one leg and then the other leg...gets his pants down and slides his bare cock into Brandi... It doesn't take too long for John to come and she says he came a lot... I start to try to ask questions but my wife tells me to wait, she has more to tell me. I am still sick at the thought of my wife being forced to do something she didn't want to do!

So Brandi goes on. After John had come he rested a bit on my wife, she enjoys the feeling of her lover's cock in her after he comes. In a bit he rolls off and they hug and cuddle and kiss for a bit, my wife with her skirt up to her waist, pussy leaking, top and bra pulled up and John with his pants down.

John offers to get her some water and she takes him up on it, so he gets up and pulls his pants up and brings back some water and a glass of wine for each of them. He gets down on the floor beside her and they chat for bit.

Soon John leans over and kisses my wife, kisses her again, then his hands are running over her body, my wife reaches for him and starts to fondle his cock through his pants. As they kiss my wife struggles with his belt and John undoes his belt and pants and my wife reaches into his underwear to stroke him. They chat, sip their wine, cuddle and kiss for a while. Brandi is now stroking a hard cock, something that really turns my wife on, seeing or feeling a man excited by her really gets my wife's pussy wet.

John pulls her top off, then her bra, lots of kissing, lots of touching, then moves around and pulls her skirt down and off. My wife helps John out of his clothing and now they are both naked. They are still chatting (my wife lusts after men that can talk!), still sipping their wine, my wife has a hand on his cock, playing with his cock and balls, John has a hand exploring my wife, playing with her breasts, teasing and pinching her nipples, teasing her pussy, playing with her clit. A little more time passes as they tease each other.

John slides up and gets on his knees and pulls my wife's face to his cock, she starts sucking him and then takes a break to put her wine glass down. John fucks her face (I assume this from a video of another of their meetings as well as from my wife's words, the first time she told me about it and after all my questions...) guiding, her efforts with one of his hands on my wife's head as he takes a sip now and then of his wine.

John puts his wine glass down, slides around and gets between Brandi's legs, spreads them wide and then starts to eat my wife's pussy. It isn't long before she comes and then she starts begging John to fuck her, telling him that she wants to feel his cock in her again. My wife flails and flops around as she has another orgasm, her hands on John, trying to lift his head up, trying to pull him up and get his cock into her pussy...when she starts to come down from her orgasm John lifts up and moves up and guides his cock into my very wet and ready wife.

Brandi tells me she lost count of her orgasms, John, kept moving and changing positions, slipping out of her so she could try to grasp his cock and guide it back into her. She was on her back, legs spread wide, then knees up, then legs on his shoulders...now on her hands and knees, then head down...John fucks her hard, his hands exploring her body, teasing and pinching her nipples. She is very wet, very open, she is very aware of her wetness and how hot and open her cunt is to John, on her back she feels the wetness oozing down between the cheeks of her ass, on her knees she feels it running down her legs, a nasy mixture of his come and her own juices...she is very wet, she gets wet, very wet and she thinks she is far more wet than usual..words that make me feel hurt (I don't think of myself as a cuckold at this time, just a hotwife hubby), hearing of her excitment at John's hands at the same time I am feeling concerned about her safety and if she felt she was forced into things...hurts but as she keeps talking over the phone I am also so turned on, so hard, so jealous, so hurt, so excited...I can see it in my mind, I know what my wife's pussy feels like, how she orgasms, how she will beg me or a lover to fuck her, to come in her.

John is a demanding lover, fucking her hard, "making" my wife do what he wants to do. They fuck and fuck, changing positions, having my wife suck his wet cock for a minute and then back in her wet pussy, his tongue on my wife's clit and then his cock back in her wet cunt since she begs him to get his cock back in her. My wife's words hurt but I am still hot and excited. She has no idea how many orgasms she had, she knows it was "lots", my wife has no idea how long they fucked the second time..."it was a long time...it felt so good!...I don't know how many times I came...but it was a lot!". As he fucks my wife from behind, her ass in the air, her shoulders on the carpet he twists her nipples, plays with her breasts, plays with them hard, she tells me she loves it. He gets his fingers wet with their combined juices and slides a finger in my wife's ass (something she doesn't really like me to do) then another finger in her ass, fucking my wife's ass with his fingers, she feels his growing excitement. John's thrusting is even harder, my wife's head is up against the sofa, she has no way to go as John fucks her harder...and she keeps coming and coming. It hurts me to hear this. But it excites me as well.

She starts begging John to come in her...I've heard her do that with a lover..."fuck me, come in me, sperm me, fill me with your come, shoot your wad in me..." Knowing the kinds of things she was saying to John as he was on the verge of coming in my wife, fucking her hard, fucking her in ways she will not let me fuck her, his fingers in her ass..so hot and so painful.

John comes, thrusting deep, holding for a second and pulling back and slamming into my wife again..and again...and again and again..she tells me she could feel his cock get harder and bigger, feel his come shooting in her and feel the wet moist slick feeling of his come as he spurts in her pussy. They collapse to the floor trying to catch some air, both gasping from the intense fuck session.

They pull apart, she sighs as she feels John's still semi-hard cock slip out of her. They sip their wine and chat for a bit. Then my wife slowly gets dressed and heads home, to our house, to our kids. She calls me and tells me a bit about it when she gets home...but mostly to assure me that she got back from her first meeting with a potential lover okay. Later, between phone calls and emails I hear more and then I hear more when I get home.

At first I am angry at how it seems John treated her, was she forced? She assures me that she was not forced and she loved it and wants to see John again. She is still rug burned on her ass, her shoulders, back and front, her knees, her elbows, John had fucked my wife hard in ways that she would not allow me to, I hurt but it also is soo hot. She talks to John on the phone, planning to meet again, planning for them to be lovers. It hurts but it feels hot. I feel a bit cucked in some ways and part of it is her intense delight in the way that John fucked and used her.

When I first get home Brandi tells me to check in my night stand, a little zip locked bag, the thong she wore that night, still wet, still fragrant from my wife's juices (and she gets very wet) and John's two loads of semen he shot deep in my wife. Raunchy and so hot, I sniff the combined scents of my wife and her lover. So hot and sexy and more than a big nasty. I want her to see John again about as much as she wants to see John. I am delighted by this side of my wife and hurt that I cannot fulfill her needs to be a bit dominated and used by the right lover. But at the same time it hurts I am still excited, delighted, turned on and a bit ashamed by it incudding the bit of shame and humiliation I get from my wife enjoying sex, enjoying having lovers and her enjoyment at some of the cuckolding things she does for me and for her. I think was a big step in my cuckold education...

The pictures, some of my wife with another lover, a guy that helped her celebrate a birthday along with three or four other men. I went along when she had a later meeting with him and while they are not of Brandi and John they are of her getting well done on the carpet, no rug burns this time,


Later for part two of Brandi and John, the time I was down in South America and KMIA while she was with John for most of the night.

Have you ever…

1. been married? Yes (first and only one...so far...for us both.

2. been divorced? been remarried? No

3. had sex at a wedding reception? No (after, --honeymoon and also with a previous GF and I assume my wife not that we go to that many weddings).

4. had sex with someone you first met at a wedding or wedding reception? No.

5. given a toast to the bride and groom? Yes, to my brother.

Bonus: What is the funniest thing you’ve seen or done at a wedding? We toasted our marriage using beer, PBR rings a bell but it might have been another cheap one. A friend that was really into wine promised to bring some champagne and he did, but gave it to us as we were leaving for the honeymoon!

Bonus II (as in optional): What is the best toast for the wedding couple? Health, Happiness and a Long and Happy Marriage!

Playing around with adding pictures, as the other one, these are old and I wanted to see what order they show up in versus how they were added on the pop-up. I'g guess scans of old Poloroids.

Must Have Been on the Rag Last Time.

Still busy with not fun things. Darling Daughter's Jetta is at a transmission shop, the tranny computer and another computer are not talking (a "bus error"), when started cold and you shift to Drive or Reverse it shakes, shudders and stalls. After a few times and revving the engine you can drive and after it warms up it does okay. Starting and shifting to neutral idles okay. Not sure why it seems to operate okay when it warms up. The Rangie is running better but not not good. Might need an Ignition Control Module and or a coil, the problem is indeed temp related, hot under the hood and trying to start, it doesn't like it. Going to get a new battery since while the volts are not too low a few of the cells are dying and more are marginal. Cold starts are great. May also be low fuel pressure but unsure on how to check that, more likely than fuel pump I would guess pressure regulator. Anyone here know anything about Range Rovers and or Jetta transmissions?

Did some tractor mowing with a rotary cutter, eyes sensitive to the dirt I guess...so they still hurt today. Got lot more cleaning up to do in the yard. Lots of berries, lots grass. Bent the wheel on the cutter so need to replace it. Both of our brush cutters are out, the wife and the kid ignore strange noises and are not careful. B cross threaded a spark plug and now that one will not hold the spark plug (or "sparking plug" for old British car fans), might see about a Helicoil for it and the other one had the muffler get loose and beat to death a little aluminum plate between the muffler and the cylinder, I heard the rattle as soon as I picked it up and neither one heard it. Second time that has happened, the first time they ignored it until the muffler was also trashed. A Husky muffler isn't cheap! I fear the plate is an "order" item so it will take a week to get it. Ain't we got fun! A new brush cutter in that size (of quality) would be about $600.

I was cleaning up some old boxes of stuff down in our garage/dog run/shop and found a box of old Penthouse stuff and swinger stuff, West Coast Swingers and other things. Stuff from before the internet days so you had to WRITE people to make contact.

Bunch of stories from those days that I had saved, some good and some bad and one that I found was one that I had written about our first meeting with another man. It was short, about a page or so, not all that detailed and reminded me of a few things and also I had written in some errors, I don't recall the why of the errors but I know that on a few issues the story isn't right. Henry and Brandi did not kiss, it was months and some meetings before Brandi and I talked about the kissing issue and decided that it was okay for her and Henry to kiss. Yes, it made it seem more romantic but the real stated reason was that it was more erotic and enjoyable for her to kiss while having sex. She admitted that kissing was an important part of sex to her. So after she and Henry talked they started kissing. A bit gut wrenching the first time but also very hot to see my wife kissing a man she had fucked and was going to fuck again and again. It also confirmed in some ways the growing closeness they were feeling for each other. Maybe that was a sign of my desire to feel some of those cuckold feelings, the pain and pleasure, the hurt and the heat? Not that I felt like a cuckold with Henry and my wife, I did feel jealous at time for the obvious sexual pleasure she felt with him as well as the enjoyment she had being with him but not really "cuckold" feelings.

Much later in Brandi and Henry's relationship I commented that she seemed to really feel for Henry, I said that I felt she loved Henry. A rather indignate denial from my wife. Then a day later she said that she was afraid to admit it but she did love Henry, not the way she loved me and would never leave me for him but she did love him. We started calling the love we have for each other as Love...love with a big "L" and the love she felt for lovers was love with little "l". Works for us.

At that time she was very careful about my feelings and unsure of her feelings for Henry, about swinging and about seeing other men. I urged her into trying a threesome as a way to get into swinging. For various reasons, some good some not so good and some due to Brandi's actions, swinging turned out to be fun for both of us but not as fun as threesomes and more-somes with Brandi being the center of attention and Brandi dating...having lovers. I'd have never guess that I would want to feel like a cuckold in that special way we use here and in the cuckold groups but I need that feeling and want it. Brandi says she enjoys her times with other men and enjoys the power she feels over me as she also enjoys relaxing and letting her lover be in charge and be "his" and be a bit submissive to him. She enjoys being "his" in front of me, the kissing, the touching, the love making. But along with that she is worried about hurting me, hurting me more than I can stand or more than I want. Yes, she wants to only cuckold me the way we refer to it her, not to really hurt me. But she has hurt me in the past with the guy she was playing a "cheating wife" with, as I have said she did do things with him that she promised to do only with me and she did lie or at least mislead me about those things. That hurt but it was sooo hot! Yes, I did feel like a cuckold!

I just got off the phone with Brandi, she is at work. Among other things we chatted about was her seeing other men, not much sex the last week, too many other issues including time, but when we have had sex recently she has continued to say that she wants to see Ed, see a previous lover that isn't local but one she played cheating wife with and spent the nights with (he didn't know that I knew most of what was going on). Also touched on her doing some cooking writing. I am almost done with a book about Eisner (Will Eisner of "The Spirit") and Miller (of "Sin City") talking and about the comic business and just finished Eisner's book interviewing comic people from mostly the "Golden Age". Part of what struck me is that the people that really went somewhere with most things, writing, art, business are driven. Not all driven people are driven to do good work but if you are driven and you can do good work you will go places.

I pointed out that if Brandi wants to write she has to make the time to do it, I can help but I can't push her fingers down on those keys. If Brandi wants to see other men, she has to make the effort to do it. I can't do it for her, Ed can't do it for her. She says she wants to do it so she has to put forth the effort to make it happen. Small steps will be fine: call Ed back, sit down and start her cooking blog or write for even five minutes. She is finishing a book by Julia Child and one of Julia's relatives about Julia in France and her first cook book and the start of her fame, very enjoyable, very interesting (I found it and read it first).

So Brandi is thinking about things and she says that she really wants to write and she really wants to play, to have a lover or two...so we shall see what happens.

Posted a picture (if it works, I guess you have to be in "Edit Html" to add a picture) of Brandi, a picture taken the day I took the second, third and fourth nude pictures of her, or at least the second, third and fourth nudes I had taken of her, before we tried swinging or she had a lover. I see nudes in other blogs and some of sexual content, is that okay here? She had some nudes taken by an artist that was painting a nude of her for her boyfriend, before we were married. I'd guess a boyfriend that you would pose nude for an artist for should be called a "lover" but what do I know. The artist would not give her the pictures, or sell her the painting at a reasonable price when her romance with the boyfriend came apart. Since I would assume she didn't sign a model release the artist did well if not honorably, free model and the deposit for the painting and got to sell the painting for full price to another person. We are on flickr but I don't go there that often.

The pictures...taken the same day.  We walked down to the beach, near Los Osos and I got a shot of her laughing as a wave got her and then talked her into slipping off her bikini as we walked back.  I love both of these shots.  The nude is the second nude I took of Brandi, the first was at a nude beach on Maui and I don't know where a print of that is anymore...if it shows up I'll share it.

Car Work and Other Issues. Time does fly.

Done a fair amount of work on the Rangie and Darling Daughter's Volks. Last problem on the Volks was a "Check Engine" light. Bought the code reader (Over $120 at Harbor Freight for their top of the line!) and it was a large emission system leak...the last time we got gas the gas cap retaining strap was messed up in the threads meaning the gas cap did not seal. But the gizmo let's you put the light out. Ah well. It is still shaking like ? (insert the word of your choice) when you first shift to Drive or Reverse, after it warms up it gets better. No idea what the problem might be. Will look for a Jetta site or two tomorrow and see what I can learn.

The Rangie is has a hot start problem. Cleaned and checked a bunch of stuff and I think I will change the Idle Air Control Valve, a GMC part so pretty cheap if you buy it as a GMC part.

Sex, not much, B hasn't been in the mood. E called and doesn't know when he will be back up but is eager to see B. Said that if business doesn't bring him up he will either come up or bring B down, he lives below the LA area. Said he would make it worth her while. A term to conjecture with.

Another guy called yesterday (R I think) local as in Portland area and wants to meet. He had hoped to do it today but other things got in the way. Not sure if B really is interested in meeting since she doesn't put really any effort into it and even in non-sexual things any plans I make for us...well any plan I make is a plan that she will make sure does not happen. She says she wants me to make plans and this has even been for us to meet another couple as friends non-sexual and if I try to make the plan there all of a sudden all sorts of reasons for us to not do it. So I don't understand and I have told that if she wants to do somethign or for us to meet someone, sexual or non-sexual...she makes the plans.

I've told her that if you are not interested in playing...don't. If you don't want to meet certain men...don't. If the whole idea isn't interesting any more...just tell me and quit playing games about it. I tell her that she is sending a very strong message to me that she isn't interested in any sort of playing or any sort of sex. That isn't all bad but don't play games about it.

But then she talks to E and R and tells them she wants to meet them. Tells me not to stop the AFF and other ads and that she is interested. The problem is that to be honest that I am at the point that I no longer care, I'm the one that is saying that I am really not interested. I'm not going to put any effort into something that I am sure will not happen. I have enough problems and things to do that I don't care to waste time persuing a fantasy that will not happen. I don't call or write potential lovers for her any more since I have the feeling that any effort I make just makes her balk. No point in doing something that is for pleasure that does not bring you pleasure, I mean we or she does not have to do this unlike a lot of things in our lives.

Don't really understand and I guess that is what really bothers me, I just don't know or understand what is going on and when I try to talk to B about it for some reason it isn't the right time or place or...

I mention things and she seems excited. She said she wanted to have some pictures taken for HMT. Hasn't happened. She thought this blog was a good idea (getting kind of boring eh?). She keeps saying that she will contact old lovers...you know the answer.

There are plenty of other problems and other issues in our lives but some of the issues have been around for years (kids, money, the fact that I really don't like where we live on several issues and she decided where we would live without even looking at the house we were buying and the house and the property have had and continue to have problems of all sorts and it could have been reduced with a minimum of care that she refused to do!).

I tell her that her actions are all the answer I need in regards to playing and she says I am wrong. I don't think I am wrong.