Monday, August 31, 2009

Comments and what I might do with the First Time with H story.

Thanks for the comments, part of what I was marveling at was I'm used to not looking all that large in the dick department in pictures but I'm not really all that small, a bit over six inches erect and my wife and others have commented on the thickness...and in swinging I have seen a fair number of soft and hard cocks and I know (with logic and using my brain) that I'm not tiny...and I've seen postings from guys that are tiny and a few small to tiny guys at parties and my wife has told me of a few guys that were short, thin (she doesn't like that at all!) or short and thin.  Short and thin takes a lot of personality to get a repeat date from her...Just kidding more or less.

Funny how she says what she wants isn't hard and fast when she finds other reasons to like the guy.  I think in the long run that as long as guy is above a certain size and competent in bed that she can deal with a bit smaller tool, but she would rather have...all else being equal a guy that was over six inches up to about nine inches and thick, she tells me she has had a few guys that were so long as to be uncomfortable or even a bit painful when things got too vigorous but so far she has not had anyone too thick.  She enjoys two guys in her pussy at the same time and H and I did that a few times, due to our thickness it was a struggle getting both of us in but once it it was great.  Brandi seemed to have one continuous orgasm as long as we were in her and she would have peaks and valleys but she would be on the edge of passing out at times....very intense for her (and for us, concern on our part of it being too intense).  BUT personality is actually paramount.

Kate also told me about some of her previous lovers and some of the other guys she "knew".  One guy that was before me was tiny in her opinion, too small for satisfaction, she said that he could not stay in her and when he was in her (she was tight!) she could hardly feel him...but he was unaware of just how small he was.   Holding up her hand with her thumb and finger about an inch apart and say...."Poor Rif-Raf!" and laugh!

Being from a family that has roots in the South I'm also impressed that Brandi is one of the most color blind people I know...without really even thinking about it.  Her parents would make about as many comments and jokes as my Dad would and considering that they were Birchers (at least her Mom was, not so sure her Dad was near as  strong in that respect as her Mom) and how she would talk and treat some people I wondered.

Strange how my Dad would make jokes about Blacks and others but we lived overseas and he treated people as people...we had  house guests including overnight guests of all sorts including several Black families that would visit the city from the out stations and stay in our home rather than the government supplied guest houses.  My Mother came from an area in a state that had a fair amount of Blacks but her county had pretty much made it against the law for a Black to live there.  It wasn't until she had moved to start nursing school she actually met some Black people.  But she also took people for people.

I worked in what was and still is to a certain extent a pretty macho and white business, flying airplanes.  It is better but I worked for Chief Pilots that boasted that as long as they were in charge "we" would never have a woman or a Black or any thing else but while males flying for "us".  When I flew for other companies a few years later it didn't take me long to figure out that it didn't matter if there were bumps on the chest or different colors of skin...pilots were pilots.  Some were great, some okay and some not so great and a few horrible and the other differences were minor in comparison to the important ones of:  How well do they fly? and How good are they on an overnight?  Not the sex side, the going out and having a drink, the tipping, were they nice to spend time with and did they treat the hotel and restaurant people nice?  A good crew made a month pass like a couple of days and a bad crew made a few days seem like a year.

The last place I worked I had some of the Black crew members tell me that they enjoyed flying with me and it was due in part to the way I treated them.  I felt strange hearing it and it made me uncomfortable since the time has long past for things like that to be a problem and I also didn't like hearing it since at times I had to struggle with it.  I wish I had known that people were and are people years and years ago!

Back to sex and the topics of pictures of endowments or un-endowments.

What I am finding interesting is how I feel about exposing myself, my naked self on the net.  I've always kind of laughed about guys showing their small penises (I'm thinking about those old jokes that make the point that penises are small and cocks are bigger) and boasting and at the same time complaining and boasting about the small size of their endowment...glorying in the public humiliation of showing their tiny penis.

So after all of that I'm enjoying (I'm also worried about it...looking silly and of course looking small and of course I am also worried about other people I know seeing them (with only 19 followers that isn't a real big concern LOL)...but since Brandi has allowed and on certain levels really enjoyed having her pictures out there I also felt that I couldn't ask her to bear risks that I was unwilling to bear myself) the feeling of showing nude (naked since there is a sexual content to them considering their place on the net) pictures of myself, full body and face and also showing how small I appear at times.

Somewhere I do have pictures of me up to fully erect but I can't find them and there are not a lot of them since I am the one that almost always takes the pictures.  So I will look for some some of me erect and also try to take some pictures of me nude and shaved.  At the same time I'm planning doing that I am also aware that taking pictures of me shaved (the way that Brandi likes me) will probably make me appear even smaller...I think cocks tend to look smaller when the area is totally shaved unless they are tending to the large size.

The pictures, old ones:  First up is a shot of us (okay only of Brandi) loading the car and leaving the Garlic Festival in Gilroy, I'll tell some of the story about that and some pictures some other  time (I loved that little cover-up!).  Then Brandi flashing at a Zoo night at the Fresno Zoo (a story there and more pictures), I'm standing next to her and the camera was being hand held.  The avatar picture is from that night.  Then  Brandi flashing on a Liberty ship, a museum one, we are not that old.  Then we are at a bar in Reno, I loved that dress.  She had a lace bra and thong on when the evening started, don't think she got either back.  The last one is Brandi and H, getting H hard for another round.  My wife was very fond of H in and out of bed, from being her first non-husband cock as a married woman to actually being a "lover" rather than a fuck or fuck buddy or someone we swung with...  He isn't all that large ( bit longer than me but not so sure he was much thicker) but he was great in bed (according to Brandi) very long lasting, able to get it up at least two times in an evening, usually more and very very hard erections.  I don't think he was fully hard at that moment but it wasn't all that long ago that he had come in my wife's pussy.

Ah the story of our first threesome.  Think I will finish it and then cut it up and post it over a few days.  Put it in manageable bits.  Is there an easy way to change the order that pictures appear in a previous post?  Given what I was trying to show the sequence would work better with a few changes.

Stealing from another Site....again.

 Not sure where this came from....

1) Are you usually late, early or right on time?

I tend to be late, except showing for work, not really early for that but a few minutes early.  Most the rest of my life I tend to be late and that drives Brandi crazy.  She likes being early.  I guess I got to where I didn't like a lot of the places I worked so I hated giving them time since I busted my butt working on the clock.

2) What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or to tell them that you do not love them back?

It would definitely be harder to tell someone that I don't love them back. Much  harder!  I've tried to hint or say things that would help in that they could and should be taken to mean less love or passion but that doesn't work since people tend to hear what they hope to hear.

3) Which would you rather have: a high salary or job satisfaction?

Satisfaction!  I'd hate to spend or to have spent thirty years of my life hating everyday I showed up for work.  I guess I could be bought but so far I haven't been.  I've worked most of my life at jobs I enjoyed and got a sense of satisfaction and pride after a day's work.  Might be a bit of laziness in that I don't think I could do a job that I'd get paid for in a field that I hated or felt ashamed of...I don't find my face all that handsome but I have a strong sense of pride and honor.  I was proud of lying and I didn't mind telling my kids what I did or anyone else for that matter.  To work as a lawyer defending industries or companies that were scummy...not so good but at the same time I feel that everyone should have good competent council in a criminal case.

I also feel some jobs are what you make of them.  I can recall years ago being in a slightly sleazy liquor store in Barstow, CA, not the best place in California anyway.  I was looking for something and the owner, an older woman was giving some Mexicans grief, not sure so many years later just what.  But they certainly looked old enough to buy booze, had the money and did not appear drunk or in any way "hoodlum" or low life, they just looked like manual labor types.  She gave them a bunch of crap...but took their money.  As she waited on me she told me how much she liked church, how much of a Christian she was and how much she hated people like that...and hinted she didn't like the liquor store biz anyway.  I never went back in there again but I could never understand why someone would do something that seemed so wrong to the values that they so loudly claimed were important to them.

However I do have many failings, just ask my wife and kids and other people that know me, but I try and I keep trying and I do regret and try to learn from my failings.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Time passes and not much going on. Nice weekend...

I'm trying to scan some photos of Brandi and one of her lovers and I also scanned some photos of me.  I realized that I don't think except for the header picture that there are any of me here.  Since I have exposed my wife with her permission I think it might be fair to expose me some.

If I manage to do it right there will be a shot of me on a tree limb taken after we had an enjoyable outdoor sex session.  I was partially shaved but not as much shaved off as Brandi likes me and the hair that was left isn't short enough.  Right after the after event pictures were shot some Park Rangers on horses drifted by, close but we made it.  There should be a shot of me painting the same building that there was one of Brandi painting.  A few indoor shots as well.

Part of what caught my eye was just how small I look in the pictures.  There are a couple of reasons for that.  I am a bit shy and not an exhibitionist.  Brandi enjoys seeing pictures of other men's erections but she only likes those after she sees more of their body, so don't send my wife a cock shot and expect her to be delighted.  Her ideal tends to be a body shot, a dressed shot, a face shot or a body shot that shows a face and then an erect cock shot.  She also has let me know in the past that she didn't like catching me masturbating and did not enjoy me sending her nude pictures.  But she enjoys them from her lovers.  Guess how that makes me feel and what kind of luck I have trying to get hard for a picture...

Looking at the pictures I look tiny!  Wow, in a funny way I am excited by looking so small there but in other ways in bothers me, I keep in mind what  Brandi said to me the first time we were naked..."WOW...What a hunk of meat!"  Fell in love with her at that point.  Brandi does enjoy well endowed men, a bit of a size queen....thick is what she really enjoys and she loves a man that comes a lot.  It does turn me on to know my wife is with a well hung lover or see her with a well hung lover and I love seeing her left messy and filled by her lover.

I think I need to find some pictures of me shaved since that is how she likes me.  She likes lovers trimmed and with their balls shaved but she tends to enjoy me totally shaved or with just a bit of hair above, trimmed very short and almost all shaved.  I'd like to try being waxed sometime to avoid the hassle of shaving, we shall see, she is interested in having that done to me but still thinking about it.

We think it would be cool for on of her lover's to insist  that that I be shaved and that I shave my wife for his pleasure.  Me having to be completely shaved at his orders would put me in my place.  One guy wanted me to wear panties, not sure if I am ready for that but it would make a statement that would be hard to argue with.  I think if Brandi let me know that she would enjoy it or enjoy it pleasing her lover I'd do it.  Pleasing my wife (and her lover)...very important to me!  He would be putting his claim on my wife by having me shave and trim her for his pleasure...just the way he likes her.  Brandi does enjoy a lover staking his claim on her, making her feel like she is his.  I enjoy the right type of man claiming my wife as his, I know my wife enjoys it and that adds to my enjoyment.

I hope to post in a day or two some shots of Brandi in bed with one of her favorite lovers and then the afterward...

Some questions for you:  I'm working on the story of our first time, should it be in present tense like it is happening or past tense?  It has got a bit long,eight pages so far and she isn't fucking yet.  Should I post it in sections?  Rewrite the whole mess?  Start over?  I'm trying to tell my thoughts and what I know of her thoughts as it was happening but that does make it long and I tend to be long winded.

Is there any easy way to change how the pictures are arranged?  Given the idea I was trying to explain it would be better if I could change their order.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Whining a bit, back pain and a very late TMI.

1. What is the longest you have been in a monogamous sexual relationship? [For the purpose of this question monogamous is defined as no sexual partners that your significant other does (did) not know about.]

My two long term relationships were dating "Kate" for six years and my thirty years (so far) with "Brandi" my wife. Both started out monogamous but I slipped in both cases and Kate did some playing around as well without permission or knowledge (I felt very cheated on!). I've cheated some in my marriage and now we are in a hotwife/swinging relationship and experimenting with cuckolding. Brandi has done some things that did not fit my idea of what we were yes I felt cheated on and Brandi did know that she was going out of our existing limits at that time.

2. If your current relationship would fail, do you have a back-up for physical or emotional comfort?

Not really, masturbation? Not sure I'm up to getting into another relationship...just not sure if I am up to the physical and mental effort (and the money either!).

3. Can you be "just friends" with someone when there is an unrequited sexual attraction?

Yes...kind of, I've been friends with a few women that I would have loved to have gone to bed with and it worked.

4. In a assumed monogamous sexual relationship have you ever cheated, been cheated upon or been a knowing third party to the infidelity? [For the purpose of this question monogamous is defined as no sexual partners that a significant other does (did) not know about.]

Yes to the cheating and yes to being cheated on and yes to helping someone else cheat (two for one since I went to bed with my wife's best friend while her friend was still married so I helped her cheat on her hubby and of course I cheated on my wife).

5. Historically, what has caused the most arguments in your relationships?

Toss up? Money or sex. In the long run I think money causes more problems. But of course dealing with the kids also causes arguments and the kids effect the money problems and of course they effect sex as well so it is all mixed together. Of course some arguments are not really about the "subject" of the argument, money can cover for sex or sex be the stated argument when it is really about money... No simple answers here.

Bonus (as in optional):What do you want from a partner in a long term relationship?

Friendship, companionship, loyalty, shared values and of course some sex.

Two for two hundred!

Anyone know anything about killing the nerves in the back using radio waves? That seems to be the next step. The back pain in the last few days has been rough. Thinking of trying accupuncture or chiropractic methods first.

Ohh...the picture.  Brandi and her girlfriend had a little party.  The guy on her right was and is active in swinging.  The guy on her left was her girlfriend's lover at the time.  The one that she and her girlfriend were in bed with when he called me in Alaska and told me how good my wife's lips felt on his cock and how much he enjoyed her great cock sucking...  I like the picture since Brandi is sitting between two men, both of them have fucked her and one of them has his hand up her dress playing with her pussy as she keeps chatting and sipping her wine.  I love seeing that my wife has pulled one of her legs up and opened her legs some so that C can play with her pussy.  Yes there were about sixteen people there (some new to playing in such a setting like the man on her left) but only three women and Brandi enjoyed several of the men.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Quick Update....

Having more car problems, still don't have the Rangie fixed, right now showing an O2 Sensor problem...bu that might really be something else like maybe the O2 sensor fouled due to a head gasket leak, using about a cup of coolant a day depending upon how much driving we do.

Brandi did talk to E (Orange County money guy, does something with money...not quite a banker but?) and he will be up here in September, toward the end or so. Brandi says she is very interested in him. She has also talked to R (actually a retired attorney and seems like a nice guy) and she isn't quite as interested in him as she is E but he is local and seems nice and they do enjoy chatting. Brandi has talked to both of them and I think she is anticipating dropping her thong and spreading her legs for both of them. I think she has chatted with them both enough so that she does plan to play with them and of course she has met R but not E. Brandi is at the point with both of them that she feels comfortable at the idea of making love with them, having sex with them, fucking them the next time she sees them with or without me along. I would rather get to see some if not all of what happens next but it really is up to her and her lover. E is very interested in cuckolding me and Brandi finds that appealing if (big if) if E really wants to do the cuckolding stuff for his enjoyment as well as ours. It does not work for her if he is just going through the motions for her and my sake.

E has told me that he really wants to make love to my wife in front of me and also to take her out on dates...of course that turns both Brandi and me on. Brandi has mentioned that she wants to have us meet E sometime and have dinner then go back to his hotel room. After some flirting and necking in front of me she wants to go into his bedroom and lock me out. She is a very vocal lover so it would be interesting to hear some of what is going on but not see it. Then she opens the door and she tells me to bring them some drinks, some wine and water and some towels and wet washcloths so I can clean her (first by tongue) and she can clean E. She also wants E to take a verbal role in cuckolding me, teasing me a bit about eating his come out of her...she gets really turned on when she has me eat her after she and her lover make love as they cuddle and kiss.

Or else if it isn't a suite or some other time to be with E or another lover and at the point that things are getting really interesting, like she is almost naked..."Honey...go down to the bar and have a drink or go for a walk, E will call you when we want you to come back." Both turn me on but also scare me a bit, E might be the type of guy to really enjoy cuckolding me and being the alpha make with me wife in public and in front of me...he says he wants more than just fucking Brandi, he wants Brandi as a "lover". Great if it is true.

R, we are not quite so sure what he wants but he isn't a bad looking guy and Brandi does enjoy chatting with him. I think the only thing Brandi would wish to turn her on more about him is that he be just a bit more pushy in that working a bit more to get together again...knowing what will happen the second time she sees him. Of course she is not planning on a threesome, these are separate lovers, just one at a time...but she is open to a threesome or moresome with the right men.

Still dealing with the accident stuff, what a pain, my back is still bad from the accident and still have the headaches (about eight weeks!). We did try some more tests on my back and they think it will be worth trying to kill some of the nerves in my back. That scares me a bit but they do grow back the the nerves they kill don't control anything.

Okay, the pictures, one is of Brandi kissing a lover, seeing my wife kissing a lover with passion is so exciting and interesting to me. I love seeing Brandi aroused by a lover and feeling a lot of passion and excitement with him. Seeing my wife kissing her lover as her lover is getting my wife's clothing off, slipping down her thong here...what is not to like for a cuckold. Seeing her sitting next to a lover and them kissing and flirting in! The other pic, another lover and she is enjoying his cock. I find it fantastic how fascinated my wife is of her lover's cocks, holding them, stroking them, sucking them, guiding them into her pussy, fondling her lover's cock after he has come in her as they relax and cuddle and kiss. Keep in mind that it has been maybe ten or more years since I have come in her mouth. This E can't say that. She did promise after E came in her mouth that she would let me come in her mouth, it has been well over a year since that promise and it hasn't happened yet. That turns me on and it also bothers me a bit and of course I feel a bit jealous and it does play to my cuckold feelings.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Days late and more than a dollar short....

First the picture, we were on a cruise and I was trying to take a more romantic and some what artistic photo...I think it turned out nice but Brandi thinks it makes her ass look too big. It reminds me a bit of some of the old master's paintings...but I might be fooling myself.

On to the questions.

1. How do you differentiate between love and lust? I think when you are younger lust is what you feel and it might turn into love. Lust is more sexual/sensual...not much in the way of friendship or even respect. I think love of course can have sexual aspects and be sensual but love does not need those aspects. At least I hope those aspects are lacking when it comes to loving your kids and your pets eh?

2. You are happily married, engaged, or committed in a relationship, yet you have a hot sexy dream about someone you have always wanted to do it with. Have you cheated at least in your mind? No

3. Do you trust your significant other? Yes...of course in the important things but to find her way across town...that might stretch my "trust".

4. How important is your Husband or Wife wearing their Wedding bands? Is it important to you and why? It isn't all that important to me but it is to her, I didn't wear mine for years and it bothered her. She wears her ring and band pretty much all the time...even on dates with lovers.

5. Do you feel that flirting is OK if you are taken? Yes, flirting keeps you in practice and I think it makes you feel better about yourself and sexier.

Bonus (as in optional):If you were 100% guaranteed not to get caught having a one night stand with someone else, would you? Yes, but of course we have an open marriage as in we are swingers/hotwife with some cuckolding games worked in.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Yardwork and other boring stuff.

Ah, the pictures...we used to live outside of Madera, all one acre or more parcels. Our property and our neighbors was two acres or more. When we first built our house we had no neighbors behind us, and there still are no neighbors back there, that land is owned by a water district and will not be built on. We had no neighbors for four lots to the east, much more than for to the west and a few empty lots to the north. Our two closest neighbors to the west, four lots away told Brandi that they had bought binoculars. Why did they do that?

Simple. My wife did yard work. She started by doing it in shorts or cut-offs and a t-shirt. Then a swimsuit top and cut-offs, then no top and at last naked. The two old goats, both married the closest one four empty lots away would keep an eye or two her. When she was wearing shorts or a pair of cut-offs and a top (including a few mesh tops she had) they would stop by for iced tea or coffee and at times would help her with projects. If she was topless or naked they would not stop by...I assume just drag out the binoculars and enjoy the view while hoping not to get caught by their own wives.

Killing a little time today, working on putting a sink in the other bathroom, not the master suite one. Have a few other projects going but wanted to look around the net while Brandi was still at work. Also will work on the story about first time we had a mfm.

Looking through old TMI questions, might answer the more interesting ones.

1. Have you ever attended a group masturbation party? Yes Same-sex or mixed? Same sex

2. When masturbating, as you reach orgasm, do you continue to stimulate yourself without interruption, or do you stop and apply pressure until your spasms subside? Most of the time I keep stimulating myself. Or? Most of the time I don't orgasm, I like to bring myself to the edge and keep myself there and then back off.

3. Have you ever videoed yourself while masturbating (solo)? Yes Where are they now? No idea.

4. Have you ever look at porn online? Yes Have you ever posted at porn online? Yes

5. Do you send/receive dirty email jokes and pictures? Yes

Bonus: Have you ever told someone they were good in bed when they weren't? Yes, a few one night stands. Felt I had no reason to hurt their feelings.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Stolen stuff.....

Yes and No ONLY

I found this on Hubmans Blog and decided to steal it.

Actually I found it at Pastures so I am stealing it from a self-admitted thief....Just kidding.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and asks.

Now, here’s what you’re supposed to do. . . Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, and type in your answers

Been arrested? No
Kissed someone you didn’t like? YES
Slept in until 5 PM? Yes
Ran a red light? YES
Been suspended from school? No
Experienced love at first sight? Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? yes
Been fired from a job? Yes
Fired somebody? YES
Sang karaoke? No
Pointed a gun at someone? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? YES
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? YES
Kissed in the rain? YES
Had a close brush with death (your own)? Yes
Seen someone die? YES
Played spin-the-bottle? YES
Smoked a cigar? Yes
Sat on a rooftop? YES
Smuggled something into another country? Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
Broken a bone? Yes
Skipped school? YES
Eaten a bug? YES
Sleepwalked? No
Walked a moonlit beach? YES
Rode a motorcycle? YES
Dumped someone? YES
Lied to avoid a ticket? YES
Ridden in a helicopter? YES
Shaved your head? No
Made your boyfriend/girlfriend cry? YES
Eaten snake? Yes
Marched/Protested? Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? Yes
Puked on amusement ride? No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? Yes
Been in a band? Yes
Been on TV? no
Shot a gun? YES
Skinny-dipped? yes
Gave someone stitches? Yes
Ridden a surfboard? No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? YES
Had surgery? YES
Streaked? Yes
Taken by ambulance to hospital? Yes
Passed out when not drinking? Yes
Peed on a bush? Yes
Donated Blood? YES
Grabbed electric fence? YES
Eaten alligator meat? Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? YES
Peed your pants in public? No
Snuck into a movie without paying? Yes
Written graffiti? Yes
Still love someone you shouldn’t? YES
Been in handcuffs? Yes

Believe in love? YES
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? YES

Not a very exciting life eh?

Brandi's answers might be more interesting and more fun to find out more about.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Kate and seeing another man's hand's in your wife's thong.

First a little update. We are still talking to two men, one local and one not so local. The not so local man says he will be up here the middle of September and is looking forward to meeting Brandi. He seems like he might work, a take charge businessman type that says he is looking forward to being my wife's lover in front of me and taking my wife out on date and having her spend the night with him. Might work out.

The other guy seems interesting but Brandi is not sure that he is enough of a take charge guy. We have met him, he seems nice and Brandi likes him but wants him to push a bit harder as in set a date for a date and then let's see what happens. Of course it is up to my wife in either case but I must admit that I enjoy seeing her with a man that treats her like she is HIS lover and knows that when the three of us are out together my wife is his lover and he should treat her that way.

The picture. A guy that Brandi and I had chatted with a few times and then met for the second time. We had coffee the first time and then we were meeting for lunch and to see what might happen.

We met him about twenty miles from our home and about fifteen miles from his work place. He parked his car and got into our wife joined him in the back seat. It was just a few moments before they were talking, flirting and kissing. About twenty minutes later as I drove toward the coast to the restaurant we were going to have lunch I had to pull over. It was just too much for me as you can see from the picture.

We were parked not too far off a very busy highway and as you can see he had the top of my wife's dress down, the bottom up and his hand in my wife's thong and from his comments about my wife's pussy being very wet and from what I could see my wife was getting more than a bit excited. It also shows that her limits with a lover are wider than with me. I doubt if she would have let me pull the top of her dress down like that and pull the bottom up and open her legs so I could get my hand in her thong right where we were parked...but she didn't mind at all letting him do it.

We went on to lunch and at one point her lover took his hand out from between my wife's legs and had me smell her scent on his fingers and taste her on his fingers. Picture me tasting my wife's pussy on the fingers of a man that very soon is going to be her lover as we are sitting in a nice restaurant having lunch. I felt a bit shamed, a bit submissive and also excited, very excited and a bit confused or puzzled. I didn't put it into words at the time but after I thought about it a bit I felt very much the cuckold and that her lover was putting in me in my beta male place and making it clear to my wife (soon to be his lover) and to me that he was the alpha male right then. To be honest my wife likes being with Alpha males, not the silly ones but ones that are comfortable being in charge, being my wife's lover in public and in front of me. After lunch we went off to a hotel, a nice hotel on the beach and they made love and later I joined in, after my wife had me eat her pussy...I think from his cock getting hard again he enjoyed seeing his lover's husband eating his come out of her pussy.

But there is something so hot about seeing your wife and another man kissing, her legs open, her top down and his hand in her thong playing with her pussy...your wife's pussy. But with the right man it is still your wife's pussy but it is also his pussy for a while and he is letting you know your wife feels that her pussy is his pussy. hot!

So on to Kate.

Kate and I had been girlfriend/boyfriend for almost six years. We had spent some summers apart including the one that I had an idea that she had at least one lover but I don't think at this point I knew much at all about that summer. I did know that she had a Mormon friend that she gave several hand jobs and a few blow jobs to and wanted to fuck but he was unwilling. That was done with my encouragement and knowledge. Kate know I had done some things with a good female friend of hers and a not so close female friend but not the details.

So I had been planning to be a crop duster (aerial applicator) and I had been in Georgia and got my commercial pilots license and the crop dusting training. Next to no sex for me there but Kate did visit me for a few weeks and we did have some great sex and we lived together while she was there and we had phone sex a few times...very few times. I suspect she did some dating and maybe a bit more while I was gone. So far about a year later I had been unable to find a job doing that so I decided to get my flight instructor training and instrument training and multi-engine training.

So she lived down in San Luis Obispo and I lived in Los Osos and I was taking my flight training up in the Lakeport area, north of the Bay area and SLO is just about half way between Los Angeles and San Francisco. The point being that it was not a short drive for me to get home for a weekend.

So we would talk on the phone and Kate would beg and plead with me to visit her on the weekends. I could not make all of them and I would let her know ahead of time when I would be down so it wasn't a surprise by any means. Kate was working and that did make things a bit more complicated but she would know days in advance that I was coming down at her request.

So I was coming down one time toward the end of my training. I got into town and had problems chasing Kate down. Keep in mind this was before mobile phones. At last we talked and we go to meet at a restaurant called 1865 and a few of our friends would also be there.. Nice dinner house lounge place. I get to Kate's house, where she lived with her parents and she is ready, just a top and jeans and she looks great, skin tight jeans showing her cute ass. She seems not all that happy to see me and a bit distant. Bothers me since she had begged me to come down.

We get there and Kate sits at the end of a long table and I sit to her left and another guy, a mutual friend but more her friend sits on her other side and our other friends are filling the rest of the table. We have a few rounds, some nibbles and are talking and having a good time. It had been a while since I had seen Kate and I was happy to see her and quite horny.

I start my right hand up her leg, slow, playing with her left leg and rubbing and stroking her leg the way she likes it. When she was excited Kate could get so wet that her pussy would leak and soak through her jeans. Delightful. I enjoyed making her that wet and seeing it, she didn't seem to mind others seeing her wet jeans and that also delighted me. Just about when my hand reaches her crotch I feel another hand there and it isn't her hand. I expect her to push that hand away but she doesn't and she doesn't push my hand away. I'm puzzled and I don't understand at all.

As things start to break up and I am urging her to get going since I am horny and I assume she is horny she tells me that she is going with the guy that had been sitting on her other side. I am crushed, hurt, angry and confused. I spend part of the night being pathetic and sitting down the street from his mobile home (a mobile home!!) an wonder what Kate and him are doing. I have a good idea.

The next night, Saturday we go to Sycamore Springs and use one of the outdoor hot tubs, bring a bottle of wine, a snack, a candle and we talk. One of the things that impressed me about Kate was she didn't mind using the less private tubs and didn't try to hide or hurry into the tub, she was relaxed about being naked and the chance that others might see her...Brandi and Kate are alike in that way among others.

So Kate assured me that she loved me and that she and John didn't have sex and were not lovers. We made love in the hot tub and she was good at it, always was. She tried a new position in the hot tub and I wondered about it but she said something like that she had read about it or Rosie had mentioned it. So I headed back north in a few days, still hurt and bothered but she did try to assure me that we were still girlfriend/boyfriend and lovers and all that. But it did bother me that she had left with him in front of our friends!!

So fast forward a few months. I'm dating Brandi since it had become clear that Kate and I were having problems, her working at McClintocks and the partying afterwards and insisting that I could not join them bothered me. Brandi and I did lunch a few times and then dinner, then dinner a few more times and lunches. Then one evening we stopped by my office at the airport where she was working as a station manager and I was working as a CFI (flight instructor) we had sex, made love. I think one of my co-workers saw us, the place was closed but?? I think I fell in love with Brandi when she straddled me, hand her hand on my cock stroking me and loudly muttered..."What a hunk of meat!" Great line if you want a guy to fall in lust with you!

Kate and I have a few more dates and not too long before I get married we head off to the hot tubs again. She swings over me in the water and something about it made me wonder. Later after I was married and Kate and I were trying to stay friends (Kate was very upset I was married and I had no idea the time that she regretted losing me as much as she did). Over her smoking some dope (weed or what ever term you care to use) and me having a few beers she admitted that she had been having sex with the guy she sat next to at 1865 before that night, that night and continued to date him and have sex with him after that weekend (she did say she didn't really understand why since he wasn't all that good in bed) and that she had sex with at times two or three guys in an evening at the after work parties at the hot tubs. She did say that sex mixed with dope and or a little booze could be quite hot. She then told me that she was always careful to be sure to not have sex with more than one guy per period. I laughed and pointed out the threesome in North Carolina, the fact that she would have sex with two or three guys in an evening and of course the fact that she and I had sex that weekend she spent most the night with the guy after we were at 1865. She blushed and looked a bit shocked.

I had tried to get Kate to try swinging and she was interested and we came close to trying it with some of the few couples we knew but it never happened. The lying about things is what was heart breaking painful. As long as I was getting my share I was excited at the idea of her fucking other men but she had to be honest and she also had to make sure I was getting my share...and of course she had to be discrete about it. By going off with him as we left 1965 she rubbed my nose in it, made sure that our friends saw it and that they knew she was leaving with him leaving me there with a broken heart and the humiliation. I am sure that they knew she was fucking him before that weekend...

I hurt and felt cheated on and very much the cuckold...but even with the pain, even sitting with a male friend in my car just down the street from that mobile home...that trailer that I was sure that my girlfriend was naked fucking that guy was also a turn on. Yes, my cock was hard and it is hard thinking about it today. Kate was a very good fuck and I am sure he had a great time. I am also sure that Kate gave me my very first sloppy seconds and a good chance that I have her to thank for my first creampie.

The mental images of Kate, naked riding his cock on top of him, her small breasts with her delightful nipples, or of him behind my Kate on her elbows and knees,,,that wonderful ass showing with his hands on it or on her swaying tits or of Kate below him and her legs wrapped around him...his cock in my girlfriend's mouth...she loved sucking cock...yeah, all sorts of pictures.

Yes Kate really made me a cuckold and I think I have her to blame or thank for setting me up to love being a cuckold.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

It is still too "f"ing hot! Not Portland weather!

It has been above 90 F the past days, almost a week now and it was up to 95 F today and it has hit over 100 F according to our thermometer...just too darn hot for me any more. Still getting headaches and back pain and to be honest the warm weather tends to make both Brandi and I a bit cranky and not at all sexy feeling. Long days for her has her tired but she says still interested in going further with some of the recent guys.

Over at he tells of a very intense cuckold moment for him, I think one of his early cuckold moments, well worth reading if you don't already follow his blog. I've got stuff to do down in the shop and in the house but I'm not quite up to doing much in this heat so first go over and read his recent postings then I'll list a few of my cuckold moments and let's see if there is any interest in hearing more about any of them.

Back in the Kate days:

Kate dating with my permission including up to giving blow jobs.
Kate dating without my permission, fucking other guys...bugging me to come down and visit and then going out with another guy.

Kate partying after work, group sex, not enough details from her. Very cuckold.

Kate's summer's away including living with a guy and sex with him and other, see the first very long post.

My wife Brandi:

First time with anther man (Henry), a threesome, didn't feel cuckolded. It was in our bed soo that was one taboo done with from the begining.
First time with Henry and Brandi kissing, affection and public affection, Henry and my wife becoming more than fuck buddies, friends and then lovers.

First time with Henry without me being there...on our bed, I was not home and I did feel a bit like a cuckold.

Brandi visiting me in Reno (crash pad) and fucking the "landlord" while I was at work after promising me that she wouldn't fuck other men unless I was there. First time Brandi was with another man without me being there! Did feel a bit cuckolded, actually more than a bit. I was shocked and hurt and very shortly very aroused.

Brandi meeting Dr. Steve for coffee and heading off to his to his room in less than thirty minutes after they first met...did feel a bit cucked as she had said that she wouldn't do anything their first meeting and did not call until she was on her way home.

Brandi meeting Dr. Steve again and again. More cuckold feelings.

Brandi meeting a new guy for lunch and going to his house and fuckiing...not much in the way of cuckold feelings.

Brandi and L...intense cuckold feelings. First overnight with a lover.

Brandi and John, very hot sex between the two of them and a rapid friendship. She enjoyed a bit rougher sex with John than we have...a bit of cuckold feelings.

Brandi and her girlfriend and her girlfriend's lover...him calling me from bed telling me how good my wife was at sucking his cock...intense cuckold feelings and knowing her girlfriend knows what turns me on. Her girlfriend enjoyed pushing Brandi's limits and pushing me a bit as well, getting Brandi to see her lovers, letting Brandi use her house to meet guys. She would assure my wife that I really wanted her to date men, enjoy them bareback, spend the night with them and to eat her come filled pussy. I think Sherri knew I was a cuckold before I knew it. She enjoyed pushing my wife into cuckold things and enjoyed my reactions to it. Sherri knowing that my wife slept around was a major step for us.

Brandi celebrating her birthday with four or five men while I was on a trip, Sherri helped set it up.

Coming home from a trip and seeing four thongs sealed up in plastic bags...wet from Brandi and some of her lovers.

I am not sure at what point I decided to accept and enjoy those cuckold love seeing my wife out in public with her lover and lots of affection between them. To feel a bit of shame (and enjoy that shame) but not enough to stop me as my wife's lover watches as my wife tells me to eat her pussy, the pussy he had just filled with sperm. To feel how wet and open my wife's pussy is after her lover, how slick she feels as I slide into her, to enjoy knowing that she is wet and slippery, sloppy from her lover or lovers. To have my wife tell me that Sid sent home a little treat for me to enjoy and I could nibble on her some but I'd have to wait, her pussy was too sore from her lover for her to let me slife my cock into her and want to feel my cock in her soo much but at the same time I'll enjoy the wait and be a bit jealous of her lover. To hear my wife comment on how much she enjoyed the love making with her lover and how much she enjoyed his cock and how delightful it was for her when he came in she enjoyed feeling her lover filling her with his big loads of come. I've seen her with some of her lovers and it is obvious how much she enjoys their cocks and come and how much she enjoys them as people and as lovers. But the sight of my naked wife in bed with her lover and them kissing and cuddling while she fondles his cock after he has come in her, after seeing her have several orgasms from his touch, his tounge and his cock...but to see her not be able to leave his cock, it makes me feel very much like a cuckold and to know that she is aware that I am watching but in some ways I am not there to her...she is with her lover! Yeah, all sorts of thoughts in my mind at times like those.

Not sure at all when I felt that I was a cuckold, I mean of course it all depends upon how you look at it, Brandi feels since we are in this together she isn't really cheating and she isn't. If you want to go by the dictionary any of us that try swinging or poly or hotwife fun are cuckolds but while there are all sorts of cuckolds from unknowing ones to sissy ones...I feel like a cuckold and I feel that when my wife is with the right lover she is cuckolding me and she feels that when she is with the right lover, a man that she really likes and enjoys in and out of bed she is putting him first and is cuckolding me...and that power turns her on...the sex and friendship turn her on too and I think that the cuckolding is just a bit more pleasure for her, a bit of spicy seasoning to her being a hotwife.